Inner Space March 2011
by Eric Francis
The Sun is now in Pisces for the next few weeks, and Chiron
is in Pisces for the next eight years. Chiron in Pisces defines an era of
astrology where many will come to terms with the idea, and the reality, of emotional
healing. Most of the problems faced by individuals and, when you add that up,
by our whole society, come back to unresolved emotional issues. Whether you're
talking about obesity or violence, cancer or depression, the struggles so many
face in their relationships, or the crisis children are in, the common thread
is a need for emotional wellbeing and maturity. When you consider this theme in
the context of your own life, what do you come up with? What do you think is
holding you back? If there are issues lurking in the past, they're not as
entrenched as they once were, and not as scary as you once thought. But you'll
need to get underneath the feeling of resistance and find what is there.
Honesty is imperative right now, and so too is managing your
emotions. I suggest you ban expressing anger until you've cooled off, written
in your diary, and/or had a session with your therapist. While I am reluctant
to ever suggest you not trust your perceptions, this is an extended moment when
you have to check them several times from a diversity of viewpoints. You're
living in an entirely new psychic environment than you were just a few weeks
ago, one calling on you to be unusually introspective. In practical terms, that
means considering for weeks what you might have thought about for an hour; and
it means looking for documentation of the basis of your opinions rather than
acting on impulse.
Get to know your inhibitions, so you can address them. I
don't suggest fretting over them, getting caught in them, but emphasizing how
much fun you can have if you let them go. You've done enough work on this
project to appreciate the benefits of having made some space for yourself.
You've experienced enough in the way of direct, actual, authentic pleasure to
motivate you to go the rest of the way. At a certain point you'll figure out
that you're working through the inhibitions of your ancestors. You're unlikely
at this point to notice that because you're aware of how much else you have to
do. If you focus on what you've accomplished, you'll see that at least half of
what you've done is throw away or give back issues that were not yours.
You're embarking on a phase of your life wherein your career
goes to the top of the agenda. By this, I mean focus. I mean quitting your
bartending job if you're really an artist, and focusing on acting. I mean that
if you're a songwriter and working as a bicycle messenger, you do something
like teach guitar so you have the instrument in your hand more hours a day. I
also mean understanding why you must distinguish yourself from people who have
less desire to succeed than you do. You have one agenda and they have another,
and your sensitivity to their thoughts and feelings will influence your
success. You are becoming an influential person, and I suggest you spend your
time with people who are creative, optimistic, and authentic.
It sure seems like time for an adventure. Can you get
yourself to an ancient site of some kind? You would be surprised how many of
those are within a few hours' drive of home—such as old features in the land,
an old monastery, or a temple of some kind. I suggest you travel about 100
miles—not so far that you mix up your schedule or incur too much expense, but
far enough to be an overnight mission. I suggest you go on your own; the
purpose is introspection, to bring you into deeper contact with your movement
through life and your relationship to existence. The presence of anyone else
will distract you from contacting the silence in your own mind—which is
becoming a few shades more beautiful as the days go by.
You now have some clarity on what may have felt like a
betrayal or being deceived in some way. You're not the type to hold onto
things, but your trust can be injured; I suggest you stretch right back into
your usual flexibility. Your commitments and the loyalty of others to you goes
to an unusual depth for this world, and this is one of your main sources of
nourishment. One gift you have is being able to see people for who they are
inside, and love them despite the ways they may not love themselves. This is a
profound influence on the world around you, and the gifts you give so
generously will come back to you if you're open to receiving them. Focus on
that openness and raise everyone's vibration.
Your relationship life has had an odd feeling in recent
years, as if there was nothing you could depend on. Therefore you had to depend
on yourself. It's not that there weren't interesting people. If anything they
were a little too interesting for you. But if they pushed certain buttons, they
also taught you to stretch your boundaries and not be so rigid in your perceptions
of yourself and of others. Now, you're ready for a new kind of relationship. I
would caution you from embarking on a search for “the one” but rather viewing
each person who enters your life on equal terms, at least initially. People you
encounter are likely to have something particular in common with you—and help
you stretch into yourself in new ways. You may find that it's the same
conversation you've been having, but in a new language.
You seem to be taking risks exploring the dialog between the
“sexual” and “non-sexual” aspects of yourself. I used quotes mainly because
these are aspects of the same thing, a fact you may be discovering. Sexuality
implies much more than itself, and at the moment for you is deeply connected to
your ideas of what it means to have a home. When the non-sexual side speaks,
though, it can imply deeply erotic attributes of your nature, which are
sometimes best seen when you filter out overtly erotic feelings. This may all
seem like a paradox, though what your astrology implies to me is that you are
opening doors to different rooms of your consciousness, and boldly exploring
what is there. Each has a feeling all its own. Each reveals something about
you.
We have all heard the term “sexual healing” but few people
would know where to go looking for it. The first place to go is within
yourself, beginning with awareness. Given the repressive nature of society, any
conscious exploration into one's erotic nature qualifies as both a reclaiming
and as an experience of healing. One attribute of your current charts speaks of
a new kind of interplay between ideas and experience. If the two have been
markedly different in the past, such as if your true desire nature has not
quite been matched in your experience, now is the time to begin building a
bridge. Let your ideas influence your choices, and let your experiences
influence your ideas.
Art is a practical matter, and it's one of the easiest ways
to dial into your growth process right now. I am aware that you may be sitting
in an office reading this, with no concept of yourself as a “creative person.”
I'm speaking to you, not to Picasso. What we think of as the “creative self” is
often an attribute of our inner child that we've abandoned. When you explore
any creative process, no matter how simple or humble your efforts, you begin to
awaken this child. Pretty soon, this child is going to come to life with raging
passion. I suggest you make some quiet visits into his or her room, and make
the awakening gentle. I suggest purple eggs, lemonade, and animal crackers for
breakfast, with a side of Play Doh.
You are smarter than you think. You make better decisions
than you think, even when you're under stress. I suggest you make a yoga of
trusting that. Practice trusting yourself, your perceptions, and your
experiences. This will gradually lead you to trust yourself a little more every
day. There's a reason you have an unusual perception of your own intelligence,
which is that you have an unusual kind of intelligence. You tend to proceed
from the intuitive to the logical rather than the other way around. Instead of
playing a game of second-guess, start with your initial perception and verify
it. You will usually be right, and learn a lot more in the process of
fact-checking and documentation. But as for how you got there in the first
place—well that's a mystery between you and the universe.
When you open your mouth to speak, what percentage of what
you say is actually true? I suggest you monitor this. I'm not saying you need
to get down on yourself if you catch yourself in white or black lies, but
rather, do a kind of information audit. Fact-check yourself. The thing I
suggest you look for is the extent to which what you say is in accordance with
your values. That is the real measure of truth. One process that's about to
accelerate in your life is the systematic discovery of what your values are. On
the one hand you can be extremely idealistic, and on the other just as cynical
about human nature. When you start to parse out that contradiction you will
find many shades of faith, fear, and knowledge that will inform you of your
true perception of existence. For a while you will have more questions than
answers.
You may be filled with the sensation that you're finally
discovering who you are: that your self-perception is coming into focus. At the
same time, I trust that you're feeling less of a certain kind of pressure that
may have had you feeling like your life was an exercise in holding your breath
under water, wondering if you could breathe the stuff if you had to. Now, you
can just simply breathe, and I suggest you do plenty of it. You can also focus
on the processes that have, in the past year, taken hold of your desire to be
healthier and more emotionally balanced. You learned a lot from being in a
position where anything could happen at any time, and living a life where there
were no guarantees. Anything can still happen and there are still no
guarantees, but you're in a lot better position to create solutions and explore
your opportunities.
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